While I was sitting, relaxing in the early afternoon, the phone rang. It was Dr. Brauner's office. The lady on the other end said, "I know that you talked with Seattle Children's scheduling for Natalie's appointments..."
I stopped her. "Uh, I thought we were just going down there for the cath and they didn't say anything about other appointments."
"Well, that's one reason why I'm calling. Dr. Brauner has been talking with the docs down there and they would like to do the Fontan right after the cath-on August 1st."
And my heart stopped. I wasn't really prepared for this. I was thinking Fall or early winter! After all, she's not close to 33 pounds yet. All kinds of thoughts came swirling into my head. "I thought they were going to 'tune her up' to get to her Fontan weight." "Is it really time?" The lady on the phone assured me that the doctors think it's time and that Dr. B. would be presenting her to the Seattle Children's Cardiology Group soon.
I called Tim to see if he thought it would be a good time to get it done. His viewpoint has always been to "just get 'er done" so Natalie can be done and over with it and functioning with more oxygen in her blood. Tim thought he was okay with the date so I called the cardiologist office back to confirm that we were ready for the Fontan. (Ready is always relative.)
Thinking back, God must have known what He was doing when He allowed me to have such feelings of procrastination in starting our plants for the garden. I haven't had the ambition that I usually have to put things in the greenhouse or garden. I guess I'm thankful for those gutt-level feeling that you just can't put your finger on that are given to prepare you for the future.
I just came across the song Blessings by Laura Story on youtube. This is just another song that re-iterates my feelings on how God "blesses" us. Some of my greatest blessings in this life have come from pain. Check it out. Click here.
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Just read the news...praying for peace for you right now! I know everyone tells you how great it will be to 'get it over with', but it doesn't stop the worry and anxiety! (only god does that! :)) Hopefully we will finally get to spend some time visiting with you guys 'face to face' while you're down here. Katie and I will be sure to plan a trip over during your stay! hug and prayers! -susie
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing this! We are also nearing our daughter's Fontan and as much as I am dreading being back in the hospital, this is a reminder to me of the blessing our heart journey has been. I've stopped by you blog a few times and I keep meaning to leave a comment and say hello. We were actually roommates with Joshua for a bit in the ICU. I've lost touch with Leah and I was excited to see you mention him.
ReplyDeleteOh, we have something else in common! I also grew up in the Midwest (Ohio) and moved up to Alaska after college as a single girl. I spent a couple years up there in Wasilla, Kodiak Island and Anchorage. It was an amazing experience and I dream about taking Gracie there someday to see the moose, Northern Lights and pan for gold!